whoo knew

no one will ever shake the way you do.
i am trying to keep you still.
tightly, tighter than i have ever held anyone.
i hold you.
in case it isn't apparent..
i love you.
it's all for you.
even when i cry and scream at you.
even when i stamp my feet
and pull at my hair
scratch my face
in anger in hatred of the things around me.
i will always love you.
it's a super power,
one of those things that i can't supress, can't name or rationalize.
i can't control why or when i have these awful urges
to run at you with all the speed i can muster
and throw myself inside you.
i just want to jump and fall into your chest
envelope myself into your skin so i will always be with you.
is that scary to you?
that i never want to leave your touch? your view?
it is to me.
i wish you would call me.
maybe send a message.
a fucking pidgeon i don't care.
i just want to hear
your arrogancy...
look down on me one more time.