garden party

you're wrong i'm not like those roses.
you're wrong that's all you've ever been.
they're beautiful. even now, after death.

i'll never feel that way again.
you can say i told you so.
you can say you're welcome.
you can say i got what i deserved.

i'll never feel like roses.
i'll fall asleep in your smoke.
like i did before, and i'll do again.

go green. go fucking green.
you were the best part of me.
riddled with failures.

you lied, i was never like those roses.
you lied about everything.
no green? no fucking green?

now i'm wilted like those roses.
the plastic binding them together is more comfort
than i've ever had.

you don't deserve what you got.
i don't deserve what you gave me.
i don't know if i deserve what you left.

but i'll go green forever.
and never again feel like roses.